1. Screams Of The Undead
2. I Have Seen Where It Grows
3. Infected
4. My Throat Is An Open Grave
5. Through The Black
6. Turn Your Back And Run
7. And The Sky Went Red
8. As We Wept
9. A Broken Upper Hand
10. The Gauntlet
1. Screams Of The Undead
Every single time I feel the burn I try to throw it away. A fast fix for the brokenness of everyday. It’s like the pain is building up, it’s swelling up, I’ve got to choke it down and break it down until it’s broke down. It’s like a shard of glass, it’s like a broken piece. Of everything I hate, it’s everything in me. A burnt heart stains black the blood it flows. A dead soul will overshadow. Push it out. It’s everything you never were. Push it out, I want to see it shatter. And everyday i see my life rewind tearing through dreams I find I’m wide awake. And even when it’s wrong I start to learn, and then I do it again. I reach out to grasp and get a broken hand, and everyone is going to turn their backs. I want to take them down, and strike them down and leave them struck down. It’s like I’m made to fail with everything I gain. Just an infected piece in a defective game. My two hands give birth to nothing right. A black past is an effective foresight. Push it out, it’s everything you never were. Push it out, I want to see it shatter. And everyday I see my life rewind tearing through dreams I find I’m wide awake. And everything is building up, a pale heart is an empty cup, if nothing ever changes, I’m breaking down, giving up. Burn it out, let it go, break it all, lose control, force it out, bring it through, pass it down, make it new. Kill the pain, scrape it off, leave it here, make it stop. Tear it down, bleed it out, all the hate, see it straight. No one ever told me that it would all stay the same. Everyday I fall on shards of my hatred and shame.
This song is about the difficulties of everyday temptations and hardships. It speaks about the pain of growing accustomed to a version of yourself that you know is impure and flawed. The purpose of the song is to stress the importance of returning to the love and faith that was once so important to those who have accepted Christ and who have since fallen out of that relationship. ’Screams Of The Undead’ is another way to say screams of the living. We are ’undead’ because we have life in Christ, and the Bible talks about crying out, when we have found ourselves enveloped in our worldly habits, and that’s where the ’scream’ from the title comes to play.
2. I Have Seen Where It Grows
A shell for the earth, all seasons reverse. A life inside out in a jet-black hearse. The feel of pain and the taste of dirt. A darkened sky and the loss of worth. Lower me down under glorious green. Eternity waits on a broken machine. Exit the soul in a vibrant white. Leaving the shell in the dead of night. Life is a path, Death- a destination. I’ve met the end of being, my eyes are open wide. I feel myself depleting, and watch my body die. A step to the throne, I stand alone. A vacant mind and a destined home. Engaging the end in a seamless gaze. Like blind I climb through the tortured blaze. Raise me up into white, unstained eternity gained, only life remains. Forever the scars have been washed away. Like blood on the brow of a forgotten day. Life is a path, Death- a destination. I’ve met the end of being, my eyes are open wide. I feel myself depleting, and watch my body die. Life is a path, Death- a destination.
In ’I Have Seen Where It Grows’ the lyrics speak descriptively about the end of life here on earth and the beginning of life in Heaven. The nature of the lyrics imply the expendability of our human bodies in light of our spiritual ones. The song shifts the importance of life over to the more important of beings, which is our everlasting souls. Though it is important to take care of the body you were given to live life on this earth, it’s imperative that we remember that our souls will long outlive our stay here in physical form.
3. Infected
I still wonder when the medicine will take its effect. And the injection they made, it’s all just left me the same. It’s hard to concentrate with echo’s of your voice in my head. From all you said, I’m still paralyzed. But I’m almost out of breath from saying things that I’ll regret. My time is over, I can’t do this alone. I’m infected with you, pull the plug already. Tell me before I go, that you’re infected with me. I can’t remember if I ever took a minute to say. That if it had to be now, I’m glad it had to be me. I can’t recuperate, I’m never going to leave here alive. Just help me through this, don’t let me die here. But I’m almost out of breath from saying things I’ll regret. My time is over, I can’t do this alone, I’m infected with you, pull the plug already. Tell me before I go, that you’re infected with me. I’m killing time just trying to find the words that fall so short of you. I’m losing sleep, I can’t compete, I’m giving out, I can’t do this alone.
’Infected’ paints an image of a person on their death bed and the thoughts that would run through their head at such an overwhelming time. The story told explains that no matter the illness at hand, it’s much more important to be infected with the love of Christ. It suggests the importance of your relationship with the Lord specifically during this inevitable yet potentially glorious crossroad from your life here on earth into the life thereafter.
4. My Throat Is An Open Grave
We lay face in pale solitude. To save face, we pulled our walls in front of you. To the same place where we danced in front of you. We fell from grace and watched the hope fall from your face. This isn’t me I used to say. All the love was so gone. It feels good to be alive. I’ve been dead for so long. And all the broken promises I can’t face. Afraid if someone notices, I lose my place. Fractured, broken, paralyzed. I need some space, tear me open, analyze. This isn’t me I used to say. All the love was so gone. It feels good to be alive. I’ve been dead for so long. Wake up screaming, I’m awake and dreaming. And I won’t stop breathing until my heart stops beating. This isn’t me, I used to say. All the love was so gone. It feels good to be alive, I’ve been dead for so long.
’My Throat Is An Open Grave’ is taken from Romans 3:13, where the Bible speaks about the powers of sin that bind us and cause us to fall short of God’s glory. It says: "None is righteous, no, not one; no one understands, no one seeks for God. All have turned aside, together they have gone wrong; no one does good, not even one. Their throat is an open grave, they use their tongues to deceive. The venom of asps is under their lips." In the song, it tells about the gift of grace given by God despite our sinful nature, and how good it feels to know that you have everlasting life because of this grace.
5. Through The Black
I’ve never been the type to turn my back and run. It’s just never appealed to me to be the same as everyone. And when it comes to shove and I can’t see you through the black, I’m going to scream your name till you come back. And every time I play with fire, I’m going to BURN, BURN, BURN until I learn. And everytime I do it myself, I’m going to HATE, HATE, HATE. It’s time to get it straight. I bury the sick side, I tear from the inside out. I follow the downside, I’m waiting for something else. I know that you’ll be here and I’ll be waiting, I know that you’ll be near and I’ll be waiting. I turn it back and question everything in sight. It’s like I try to fall again when everything is going right. And everything that matters isn’t everything in sight. It’s taking every bit of me to keep this all inside. I’ve never been the type to turn my back and run. It’s just never appealed to me to be the same as everyone. And when it comes to shove and I can’t see you through the black, I’m going to scream your name till you come back. I bury the sick side, I tear from the inside out. I follow the downside. I’m waiting for something else. I know that you’ll be here and I’ll be waiting. I know that you’ll be near and I’ll be waiting. Lost my mind and I lost track. I’m going to scream your name till you come back. Scream your name. Lost my mind. I know that you’ll be here and I’ll be waiting. I know that you’ll be near and I’ll be waiting. (Lost my mind). I’ll be waiting. I’ll scream your name till you come back.
This song is about the knowledge that no matter the case, God is present to those who call on him. It’s about waiting on God and not giving up hope that in good time, He will make a difference in your life if you lay your cares on Him. The song also takes the waiting process a step further to say that we will wait with hope of His return to earth. It says ’I’m going to scream Your name till You come back’, suggesting that we call upon His presence in our lives daily even before He makes His second coming.
6. Turn Your Back And Run
I’m growing partial to detesting a disease in me. It’s head swells into beautiful dependency. With teeth that feed on flesh and everything I swear I am not. A small price to bleed and give you everything that you want. Dancing with the spirit, giving heart to pump a dirty vein. Leaving with a scar, a uniform to bruise a perfect stain. Anything you hate will be the root of everything you breathe. Breathing in the dirt will leave you hating all that you conceive. I try to push myself up, I’m breaking from the inside. I’m slipping through the cracks and I try to push it out of mind. Switch, you’ve got to turn your back and run. To push it out is just a patch to heal a gaping wound. A brass tack to pin a hair and heal a broken tomb. I never thought I’d be the one to bring it down to this. My last thought is through a statement and a shattered fist. Face down, fearless, light me up, end this. I try to push myself up, I’m breaking from the inside. I’m slipping through the cracks and I try to push it out of mind. Switch, you’ve got to turn your back and run. Microns from the flame head. Beat my hands to proceed nothing. Staring into souls with blind eyes. Taking the throne in my tiny hand. And chase it with the pain. You won’t have life until you run. You got to give it all away. I try to push myself up, I’m breaking from the inside. I’m slipping through the cracks and I try to push it out of mind. Switch, you’ve got to turn your back and run.
’Turn Your Back And Run’ is about turning away from the impurities in your life as opposed to using temporary solutions to cover them up. It talks about the ineffectiveness of remedying our problems with our own two hands. When the song says ’switch’ it’s referring to the decision to turn away from dealing with these trials and problems using your own discretion, and run to the Lord for His wisdom and direction.
7. And The Sky Went Red (interlude)
And blindly we held your hand and threw you down. We cursed your name, turned our backs and begged you to embrace us.
8. As We Wept
I will stand and fight to justify you. You have bled and died to justify me. Force me down into hate. Your freedom will stop when I can’t breathe. I’m taking the path that I don’t need. I’m taking the place so it won’t bleed. Broken out and turned away. Burned to the ground and change the face. Bled to death and turned to gray. Resurrect again to say. I made my promise, and now I’ve fallen. Through broken pieces I see you. I will stand and fight to justify you. You have bled and died to justify me. Let me see it all die in front of myself so I can’t lie. A hollow design for the new side. Exterior death for the old side. This is the end of the last time. Bury the old and say the name. Break the mold and new remain. Resurrect again to say. I made my promise, and now I’ve fallen. Through broken pieces I see you. I will stand and fight to justify you. You have bled and died to justify me. A lifeless body, a broken soul. I fall to zero, I’ve lost control. I’ve lost control, I will stand and fight to justify you. You have bled and died to justify me.
The idea behind ’As We Wept’ is to return the favor of standing up for Christ the way he stood up for all of mankind when he was put to death on the cross. Christ never denied us even though we were always well deserving of his disapproval, but we as a society are so quick to denounce and deny who Christ is, and what he has done for us. The song states ’I will stand and fight to justify you’ ( just as) ’You have bled and died to justify me’.
9. A Broken Upper Hand
Trapped behind my state of mind, I took your words and now I’m blind. And everything you’ve given just kills me. Your words swarm through my soul like locusts. Eating away at any glimpse of focus. Their eyes flaming red like pain. Filling the void once righteous and bloodstained. But words can’t kill the light inside me that tears me from the hate that binds me. I feel it crawling up my spine. But I’ll cut it off before it reaches the bloodline. You’ll never fade me out, you’ll never turn me off. You’ll never reach the end, you’ll never hear enough. Your half-grasp can’t exterminate my stand. You can’t rule with a broken upper hand. A fragment of what’s been left behind. Trapped behind my state of mind, I took your words and now I’m blind. And everything you’ve given just kills me. Your face brings out the hate that rots me. The face of everyday that haunts me. I can’t pull away my blank stare. A thousand times should prove I don’t care. But hands can’t steal the light that makes me. Or bring me to the fate that breaks me. I feel it crawling up my spine. But I’ll cut it off before it reaches the bloodline. You’ll never fade me out, you’ll never turn me off. You’ll never reach the end, you’ll never hear enough. You’re half-grasp can’t exterminate my stand. You can’t rule with a broken upper hand. A fragment of what’s been left behind. Trapped behind my state of mind, I took your words and now I’m blind. And everything you’ve given just kills me.
This song tells about the power that the devil utilizes to draw us into his way of thinking, and away from our faith in God. The title ’A Broken Upper Hand’ refers to the weakness that the devil suffers in an attempt to destroy our relationship with Christ. Even though the devil may have an upper hand on our thoughts and actions from time to time, we, with the power of God, have the ability to resist these temptations and remind the devil of his brokenness in contrast to the power of God.
10. The Gauntlet
I hold you in like a deep breath. Feel you like the last beautiful touch before a final rest. I know I’ll see you forever. I want it painted black and red. It’s so beautiful to me, it’s everything I see. It’s so beautiful to me, but it’s nothing that I need. And I can’t taste anything less. Every time I’m forced down. To be with yourself, take all the blood you want. But not from here. It’s so beautiful to me, it is everything I see. It’s so beautiful to me, but it’s nothing that I need. Not a hand, not a finger. This is my home. I’m dying here. I hide in the corner. That look on your face, I’m accustomed to it.
This song is about holding onto something despite the harmful effects it may have on your life. It paints a picture of growing accustomed to something to the degree that it manifests itself into an action of second nature. Some things that we do consistently, we become numb to. This song speaks about realizing the destructive power of these things, and taking action to become effected by them once again.
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